How Mass Effect 3 Should Have Ended
by WithinSixMonths
Today is a special day for me. Not because I’m going to a memorial day BBQ or party or anything like that. I’m actually working.
But last memorial day I also had to work. I was really pissed off because I was closing, it was going to be empty, and I was closing with Mazz.
At the time, Mazz didn’t exist to me. He was just the lazy co-worker who was too easy a push over when it came to his failing relationships. I saw him as useless because he wasn’t doing things in life to make him happy. He was trying to make others happy and I hated that.
So of course the store was empty and I only had him to talk to. It started off with small talk of “so what games are you playing?” little did we know then that our love for video games would actually spark the conversation to everything video games. After not even an hour of us talking we began having fun conversations about everything in the store, our current failing/failed relationships. We gave each other advice even.
I don’t remember fully our conversations but one thing that really stuck with me was the first time I made him really laugh. We were behind the counter and had the stepping stool out to sit on. I stood on it next to him and blurted out “so thats what over the counter looks like?!” I remember him just laughing at my crazy antics and then shrinking down to my level and making fun of my view.
The entire night was perfect and I realized I had to have him in my life. From that day on we just had to keep talking to each other. It was so refreshing to be able to feel so comfortable with someone. Especially someone neither of us expected.
So today is significant to me because today is the day I really saw my boyfriend as a person. He became my best friend to (after a few months of me trying to avoid it) my boyfriend. Now I can’t imagine life without him. He’s everything to me and I have to admit, love is always where you least expect to find it. Always give people the benefit of the doubt. You never know what could happen.
(Source: steverogerssexual)
Early morning IDGAF lol
forgot these
this is what I do after a few drinks and have nothing better to do.
Dear Sister, and All the Other Things I Can’t Control
Everything has seemed to be falling down onto my shoulders lately. About the beginning of this month, end of last month I come to find out that things for me, health wise, aren’t improving. Of course this is big news, and of course I tried to hide it from you because I am the worst person to exist. I didn’t want to worry you just yet because you were starting a new job and that wasn’t something I wanted you to go in with. Sometimes I do things ass backwards. I think that I am doing something to protect the people that matter most, but I end up hurting them in the end. I have all the right intentions, but the wrong ways of going about them.
Not even a week goes by and someone pops their head back into our lives and begins to start shit again. We couldn’t control it. I know that. But it was still stressful to see you have to deal with it, and to have to worry about what was going to happen.
That gets solved, but then work begins to fall apart. I start working harder and taking other responsibilities for others. I begin to look for a new job. The job hunt isn’t working, and I also find out that the school I’m trying to get in to rejects me.
Things keep piling up, and then today, my sister sends me a message on facebook about how if I move away I will not be allowed to see my niece and I am so inconsiderate and that I should have never been born, I was a mistake. This is a censored version of what she said, and I’d like to say this is something new but this happens at least twice a month. Yet when I try to do anything about it she uses my niece against me and turns the family against me too.
So everything seems to be happening at once and I haven’t had a moment to really let everything sink in so I can properly move forward. I haven’t really had time with you either to feel comforted, and I know that’s neither of our faults and there is nothing we can really do about it, and I’m sorry. I wish I could take back all the stupid things I’ve done and for shutting you out but like I mentioned before… I think I’m doing it to protect you and I’m not. But you make me so happy, from the day we really started talking to now. Everything about you brings a happiness to my life I haven’t felt in so long. I just see you and my heart races, when you smile I feel butterflies swarm my stomach. Just hearing you talk to me or say “babe” or “love” or “babycakes” whatever it is make me get goosebumps every time. I know things won’t magically get better, and I know thinking they will is stupid. But I know things will slowly get better and I will be able to overcome any obstacle. I know I can, I am stronger than that. I have a wonderful boyfriend by my side. I don’t expect you to fight my battles, I don’t even expect you to hold my hand when I do on my own. I just hope that when all is said and done I still can come home to you at night… even though I can’t really come home to you, but someday I’d like to.
I can’t really ask for forgiveness, I don’t really expect it either. I just hope that when tomorrow comes that we wake up realizing that our love is more important than anything and everything horrible that is happening can be overcome, and we will overcome it.
Just have faith in me…
Oh hey. That’s me.
Here’s my thought process tonight, I think…
I’m feeling kind-of lonely and just standing on the outside of everything lately.
I don’t know if I was just “spoiled” by what I had, and now that I don’t exactly have it anymore I just feel like I’ve lost everything.
It’s not even like it’s gone. It just feels like it sometimes.
I hate this bed. I hate sleeping in it alone. I hate waking up alone. I hate being disappointed. I just hate things right now.
I’m gonna go design something so I don’t start stressing. Or whatever.
